Does anyone know where I can access the account settings to delete my profile in life?

The case is over.

I have gone the last few months in a relapse to try to get with any girl I could. There have been a few people who have shown interest, but the majority of people see nothing of worth in me.

How did I go from being a boy in a band that girls would do ridiculous things just to meet, to being just another guy not worth their time?

At least now, coming out of the depressive fit of knowing that I have absolutely nothing interesting/attractive/unique about me, I have all that time I spent chasing tail for validation to try and do something more productive.

Like getting drunk.

It’s been a really long time since I logged into this tumblog, even longer since I’ve posted. I occasionally feel the need to get back into this, post more stories, tell complete strangers about my life. I want to get back into writing, over the last year I feel like I’ve lost myself.

I don’t know if anyone remembers this, or even cares. Though, I suppose the point when I started was just to put something out there, regardless if people read it…

I don’t want to feel like this anymore.

Where are your mind reading skills now?

Sometimes I get anxious. Sometimes when that happens I start to feel nostalgic and miss people I used to be involved with. Usually that results in my messaging that/those person/people and reconnecting with them. Most times I end up kicking myself in the ass for it. 

To stop doing the same thing every time I felt like relapsing into old habits, I deleted all but a few numbers from my phone book and I stopped saving new ones. I also deactivated my Facebook and so I am left with little to no way to get a hold of them.

Sometimes it really takes a lot of self-restraint to keep committed to not looking like a crazy person anymore. 

It’s going to take a lot more effort to prove to myself that I am not a crazy person.